Even nice guys...

can make me feel like crap...



I unintentionally sabotage a good thing.
Does this make me a bad person?
I'm beginning to think I should write off having a serious relationship for awhile. I don't like who I have become and how it's been making me feel.

MySpace

I'm an addict. I actually get excited when I see that I have new comments or messages. I was fairly late joining the MySpace bandwagon. I remember when I heard about it for the first time. I think it was this past September...my friend's younger brother asked me if I had an account. At the time, I scoffed...partly because I had never heard of it but also because I thought that anyone who was anyone had a blog. Little did I know about the phenomenon of MySpace. When I signed up in October there were 30 million+ members. I remember, because I got the little message from Tom welcoming me...I went to his page and saw all of his "friends"...and thought holy shit, MySpace is way more popular than blogging. There are now almost 56 million members to MySpace. I still prefer Blogger to MySpace because it's my outlet for writing...that and the fact that blogging is so much more personal...in a way I get to know my readers and the other people who whose blogs I read...there is so much more insight going on here than the pictures of people flaunting their bodies on MySpace to get friends. I don't have 497 friends like some people do...the weird thing about me is I actually like to kind of KNOW the people on my friends list. Yes, some of them are fellow bloggers who I've never actually met in person but I still know them. I forgot where I was going with this...

...whatever, Happy Valentine's Day.

Hurt

enough said