Monday, December 19, 2005

Really, it's fine...

I love my readers. I want to thank those who are willing to stand up for me. I know the long time readers have read through some of my darker stuff when Don broke up with me...thanks for sticking by me. As much as I hated it/him when we broke up...I've gotten past a lot of that. Everyday is a milestone for me. However, I do still talk to Don. We talk every couple of days...and we've reached the point where we can talk pleasantly to each other. No fighting. I like to think that he is genuinely happy for me. It's difficult for me to cut someone off so completely considering he was my best friend for so long. There is no way we would ever get back together...he knows that...and so do I. Most friendships fade through time as I'm sure this one will eventually but where ever he ends up...I just hope that he finds happiness. I don't have a problem with him reading my blog and I don't mind the fact that he leaves comments (because we all know I'm not a fan of lurkers...however, my postion on that has slightly changed due to a fabulous explanation by one of my lurkers, who I will refer to as AKA). I know if he had a blog, I would probably read it...anyone who knows me really well knows that I'm nosy as hell.

P.S. Congrats to Don on his new baby sister.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Rough

December 10th has come and gone. The worst thing about yesterday was my watch. I think I looked at the damn thing a million times and imagined what I would be doing at that exact moment if I was still getting married that day.

Getting my hair and make-up done. Arriving at the wedding site. Putting on my dress. Having my sister and my best friend making me laugh to try and get me to relax. Walking down the aisle. Reception. Blah, blah, blah...

I mentioned these thoughts aloud late last night and my watch was promptly confiscated along with my cell phone. However, I did manage to make exactly 2 drunk dials before getting totally shit faced. I also managed to not get sick in the passenger seat of my own car...instead waiting until I got home and inside in front of my lovely toilet and after kicking my best friend out of the bathroom (I refuse to let anyone see me get sick).

I don't remember much after that but I was told that I changed out of my clothes and into my pj's all by myself (although there is debate on whether or not a loud noise that was heard was me falling over or from my boots being slung on the floor...all I know is that I don't recall falling and no one actually SAW anything). I was also told that I woke around 5am clutching my head in pain although I don't remember that either.

Needless to say, it took me forever to get up today.

And thanks to 2 people in particular for helping me get through yesterday...it was greatly appreciated.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Two things I learned on Thursday...

-I don't handle a crisis very well.

-Especially when it involves blood.

P.S. Everything is fine now.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Random Things

Sorry I haven't posted lately, I just don't feel like there has been anything interesting enough to write a whole post about. So...here are some random things:

-I applied for a new job. A REGULAR one, not one with the shitty hours and days I was working before. This one is 9:30-6:00. I'm pretty stoked about it and I hope that I get it.

-My brother-in-law is in the army training to be a firefighter. This means that my nephews are obsessed with all thing army and firemen. All the clothes they wear are referred by them as "army men clothes." Even if the jacket is blue and doesn't resemble anything army..."This is my army man jacket...These are my army man pants" and so on...

-I felt like crap last night when I got home. When I drink, I smoke...A LOT. My chest hurt last night...so badly that I couldn't enjoy the McDonald's that I had stopped to get on the way home.

-The friend I was hanging out with yesterday is a musician. He lives with 2 other guys and they are musicians as well. They have a real recording studio in their basement. Well, my friend wrote a song and they recorded it and he is SO proud of it. He had me listen to it about 6 times. It's really good. It makes me wish I had learned to play an instrument when I was younger.

-I was so tired last night that I fell asleep while I was on the phone (sorry).

-I'm going to my first Christmas party of the season on Saturday. I'm going to be my friend's M. date. I'm hoping it will get me in the holiday spirit.

-A lot of people have been googling Risque Cafe and have been ending up here...please stop.

-I'm hoping I have something good to post about soon.